Monday, April 8, 2013
Hello All,
I was asked to describe and complete the exercise of loving-kindness from a few weeks ago and the integral assessment process. As mentioned earlier a few weeks ago the loving - kindness exercise or practice helps a person discover what selflessness means; it helps us think about the people we care about most and to act as if we are doing things for them and to let go of all negative thoughts against them and other people or circumstances that may arise in our daily lives. The integral assessment process is very unique and powerful; it helps us figure out what areas in our lives we need to focus on more whether that is our psycho-spiritual, biological, interpersonal, or worldly aspects of our lives. There are many levels of development within each aspect that affects our lives and that we need to work on more in some levels that others just depends on our own circumstances. If you are not a member of my class and you have come across this and have questions please feel free to contact me and I can help you understand more and possibly help you start your journey to integral health.
As I took part in the assessment I discovered that I have a lot of work to do and that it could explain how I have been feeling about myself lately. I thought about how I have been using excuses for everything when I hate excuses and that is just one thing that is tearing me down. The biggest area of growth and development that I need to start working on ASAP is my psycho-spiritual area and the level of emotion. I tend to hold everything in and not say things out loud in fear of hurting others so instead I hold it in and hurt myself until I break. Through the weeks that I have had the opportunity to take part in the is class and go through the exercises and recording my thoughts a lot of emotion from my past, present and some for my future have really surfaced and I keep trying to push it back down and hide it but the more I do these things the more I feel I need to let it come out especially when dealing with the emotions of my family issues which over time have lead with feelings of feeling hopeless, worthless, and overall just not good enough. After completing this assessment I have determined that I can't do this by myself, I need to ask for help and I need to stop being scared of what will happen so one of the activities that I will be starting will be talking to somebody a professional who can help walk me through my issues and help me come to terms with them. I will also continue to practice the loving-kindness and subtle mind practices as often (daily if possible) as possible.
I am being very blunting honest with all who reads this because I want to help people understand that there is a way to find yourself again to find your inner being and reconnect with different principles and aspects in your life that you once had but lost and you can find it again. I am slowly rediscovering myself and I can't wait to back to true happiness and health in my life.
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I enjoy your honesty. I believe in not letting fear hold me back and always try to face my fears. I too have had many problems with my family that I had to come to terms with, to include having to confront my mother. I know just how hard it can be, especially if you're going it alone. You gain more strength as you go on and you feel better too. There's nothing more rewarding than facing the challenges in your life and liberating yourself from them. I hope your are successful in your journey and if you ever need someone to talk to just let me know!
ReplyDeleteI like how you talked about excuses. I know my biggest excuse is time but I haven't done anything to change my time management. Take those excuses head on and knock them out of the way. Think of what we could accomplish if we didn't use excuses. I learned that the biggest thing for me is getting back into shape. I did it once and everything else in my life fell into place. Can you think of a time where you felt whole?
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DeleteI too lost got in shape and felt great and then for some reason everything started to spiral our of control but yes I hear ya and have felt that way before and working hard to get back there...I am trying to lose the weight again and get back on track I would love to have some more accountability and I know we don't know each other but I would love to help support you and have your support as well.. let me know if you want exchange contact info!!
Like you I have little patient for excuses, but find myself using them quite often. I need to stop that and get back on track of doing what needs to be done and when it needs to be done. I like the fact that you can be honest with yourself as well as us, it seems to me a step in the right direction, and everyone can find areas in themselves that need improvement.
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